Wanted...

When I saw the Doctor last week, apart from other things we discussed, he told no more IVF til next year. I would have to have a period by today to fit in one more cycle, which wasn't going to happen, and therefore neither is getting pregnant anytime in 2009.

I'm going to have to change the title of my blog...HELL. This was *not* supposed to happen, or not happen, as the case would be. My plan was to be pregnant before 2010, still in the oh ohs, hence the title. Piss.

Soooooo, I've decided to put this out of my head (not sure how easy this will actually be) and enjoy some fun and frivolity and do A LOT of yoga.

I do, however, require a wing woman and am wondering where I should advertise for said position...here? On a tee shirt? Certainly not on the back of a toilet door.

WANTED *Wing Woman

- Gen X (or young end of Baby Boomers) female, willing to go out and have fun. Must work weekends and be available a couple of weeknights for drinks and dinner.

Job description

- To help me pick up men and not just any men, only ones who fit into the List given to you. This list is private and you will have to sign a non-disclosure agreement as a term of employment.

- You must be willing to be second best and therefore not look quite as good as me when we are seen in public together.

- My wing woman will have my back and if need be, do the initial flirting with the man of my choosing, laugh at my jokes (but not in a lesbian way) and be able to have witty banter with me so said male thinks I'm sexy and funny, at which time, you will step away from "us" and only speak again if I speak to you.

- We can speak more about the position on application.

The successful applicant will have a good sense of style and be willing to pay her own way.

_{*This is not a paid role, I just really want someone to go out and play with}

Phuck

This was NOT supposed to happen this month. I wasn't planning on getting my period until sometime next year, but as the saying goes, "the best laid plans..."

I'm not in the funnest of moods, but wanted to let you all know.

Now I'm going to process this over the next couple of days...

N x

October 26th

The wettest October day in like twenty years and it was freaky windy, but that was no reason to stay in bed.

I had an appointment with my acupuncturist at 10.30. He's awesome and very personable and opened my fallopian tubes which friggin killed, but only for a second, so I forgave him.

From there I went to the Fertility Clinic for my embryo transfer...yes Peeps, this is the furthest I've got in the eighteen months I've been on this journey. The one and only egg I produced this month was fertilized on Saturday and divided. I saw it before it was inserted into my uterus and it looked completely different to the previous time when they were just round eggs...this had cells and looked more exciting.

Then a couple of hours later, back to acupuncture. He told me I was now a fertile Goddess...

Here's hopin'

N x

One Good Egg

The egg retrieval was yesterday. I had three good size follicles, but the Doctor could only retrieve one egg. Here's hoping it's a goody.

I feel MUCH better today than I did after the last time.

N x

Not Compromising...

Every morning I have a short ritual (by short, I mean it takes all of a minute) where I make a wish to meet the man of my list...admit it, we all have one, even if you ARE in a relationship, and to have a baby. When asking the Universe for things, one must be very specific. On Wednesday morning, I left with Ollie for a quick walk, made my wish and left the apartment. I had to get to the Fertility Clinic for a blood test and ultrasound and was going to take him to the park after. Apparently I must have worded it wrong...

We did the short walk to the beach, walked home, got in the car, drove to the clinic, I got back in the car after the tests (everything was still on track for egg collection Friday, which is now today, but I'm getting ahead of myself) and drove to the park. Ollie jumped out of the car and walked into the park...still a normal day. I watched the whales for about 15 minutes with a couple of friends while the dogs stood around...it was going to be an extremely hot day, then walked Ollie back to the car. This is where my day went downhill FAST. He couldn't get up the stairs. His back legs had NO strength, so I carried him up, put him in the car and called the vet as I sped there because I figured he'd been bitten by a tic.

Vet told me he wanted to check him for tics and keep him for observation for a couple of hours. This was now 9.00am. Fine with me, just fix him. I went and met two new friends for coffee, who were now equally worried about him.

They called from the vet at 1.00pm and told me I could pick him up. There was no tic and as baffling as this was, the vet thought Ollie may have strained his hips, or this was the onset of arthritis. I took him home, but something wasn't right. It came on too fast and too sever to be a hip "thing" so I checked him over once more and FOUND A TIC.

I carried him to the car, and couldn't get back to the vet fast enough, who was mortified he'd missed it. The tic was removed and Ollie was carried away to be doused in a bath and administered an intravenous tic anti serum. He was not coming home tonight.

Paralysis tics are deadly. The first symptom is the dog's hind legs go limp, then the poison goes into their respiratory system, which is where it was heading in Ollie. By the time I took him back, he was panting hard. I picked him up yesterday evening and was told he's going to be fragile for about a week.

He's very lethargic and his bark is different, like he's whispering. When I heard it last night I realized how fatal this could have been. I'm just thankful the tic was found and he was treated in time.

Needless to say, I lost my appetite and really have eaten nothing since this ordeal!!!

Hey, Universe, I'm not compromising. I want my dog, a baby AND a relationship.

N x

Ouchy

Back to the Fertility Clinic this morning for a blood test and an ultrasound. I have three good follicles and can begin my Antagonist injections tonight. Now I'm injecting myself with two shots...

This means egg retrieval will probably be on Tuesday or Wednesday.

I have another blood test on Monday, and will find out then.

N x

Stick it to me...

I started my Puregon injections yesterday. Same time every evening until the Clinic tells me otherwise. Next blood test is on Saturday when I'll probably have an ultrasound.

Thank you to all of mamamia's readers who responded today. I appreciate all the opinions and hope I'll have some good news to report in the not too distant future.

http://mamamia.com.au/weblog/2009/10/guest-post-im-single-and-trying-to-have-a-baby-with-donor-sperm.html

N x